Wednesday, May 09, 2007

Why blog if you have the option of picking up a pen and scribble in your own notebook?

This was the question I had in mind which would continuously discourage me from writing on this blog. However, whenever I felt like, I did write my worries and joys in my notebook. Today, I was just wondering about "privacy". This was the word which Lilavati madam used very frequently to refer to something personal, which you don't like to share with others. But, then if you do not wish to share it with others nevertheless you do it and one man knows that you have done that and that is obviously -your soul. I used to wonder ever since I came to live in this hall as to why people would immediately latch their rooms once they come to their room after class or lunch..I mean, it appeared cynical to me, particularly the bang of the room and latching, clearly audible from at least a distance of five-six rooms. Why is that we wish to remain away from others..is it because of your worry that others should not know what you are doing ( it happens with one of my friend, who doesn't wish anybody to know that he is studying and he himself curses every other person who studies) or is it because of some stable personal disposition.

Today, I made a promise to myself - which is actually a corollary of my previous promise - I pledge that I will not hide/ conceal anything (however big/ small it is) with anybody. So, now I can blog easily sitting before the comp without feeling why should others know what I am feeling/ is it appropriate to share your "private" feelings with them. But, then if you can never conceal anything with one man, why you should run and flee from others. If you have done anything, good/bad, you should have the courage to accept. The example which comes to my mind is the most accessible one (may be because of my age or because of the atmosphere where I live in) - watching obscene material on the computer. You don't want others to see but then how can you prevent that from yourself. Have the courage to accept. Some of my friends can counter this argument saying that why do you close the door when you bath? Well, I don't have an answer to this but then I think that after bathing, everybody knows that you have bathed.. this may not be true in other cases.( particularly of those which are talked of above)